Have you ever watched the evening news and thought, "Something is not right here! The facts are not adding up!!!"? Stuff like this happens to us all the time, and yet we ignore the thoughts and try to forget about them. Why? Because it is not okay to be different. It is much easier to follow the "rules" and blend in. I have never been afraid of being different, so in some respects it has been a little easier for me to go against the grain.
My turn to the "dark" side (and yes, that is tongue-in-cheek) came with problems I had with my daughter. By the time she had reached middle school she was angry and depressed and quite difficult to deal with. I searched everywhere for answers: teachers and school counselors, social workers and psychologists. I finally took her to a psychiatrist who diagnosed her with ADHD. While I could see she did have some symptoms, I also knew there was something more going on. I had worked as a residence counselor with emotionally disturbed children for several years as well as many more years working as a preschool teacher. I know ADHD. You can reason with those children, even when they're angry. You could not reason with my daughter when she was angry. If you continued to talk about what upset her she would continue to get more and more angry and would not stop. The only way I could get her out of the anger was to distract her with a totally random subject.
At this point, I need to step in and say that my "knowing" it was not just ADHD was largely my intuition talking to me. I just didn't recognize that's what is was at the time. I never analyzed my intuition when I was using it back then.
Finally in desperation, I asked God what was wrong with her. I heard the word "bipolar" in my head. My first thought was, "I have a bachelor's degree in psychology! This is not what I was taught bipolar is!" However, when I went home that night and began to research bipolar disorder on my computer, I found out that it manifests much differently in children than it does in adults. The anger was a very common manifestation in children, as well as the fact that the mania and depression can cycle through in children three or four times a day as opposed to weeks or months of one or the other in adults.
I began to research what could be done for bipolar disorder, and the answers I found were not good. All the science-based accepted views were that bipolar disorder could not be cured and people needed to spend the rest of their lives on medication! Still, again my intuition popped back up, telling me this was not true!!! I began to do more research into alternative treatments and included prayer in the mix to help guide me to more answers. This lead me to a new friend at work with an autistic/ADHD daughter and the book "Enzymes: Go With Your Gut" by Karen DeFelise. Even though my daughter is not autistic, she does have some symptoms in common with autistic people that made me understand digestion plays a key role in mental health!!! She had digestive problems from the time she was a very small child.
It was at this point that I stopped and looked back at my life. If so much information was being left out of mainstream science in this area, what else was missing? I began to question everything! As I asked more and more questions (and came up with even more questions), I started to understand the world was not as it appeared at first glance. There was missing information everywhere!!! My new life had begun.
It's been a good many years since that first struggle with my daughter's health, yet I wouldn't change it if I could. I have learned so much and met some really wonderful and fascinating people along the way. Even though I still see many problems in the world, I am much more aware of them and can actively work on ways to fix them.
That's why I feel so strongly about helping people tap into their own intuitions. I honestly believe that by helping people connect to their hearts and the wisdom of the One, I can help change the planet for the good of all, one person at at time.
Yes, I am a conspiracy theorist, and yes, my intuition helped me get there. I feel I am much more complete and aware. I wouldn't change a thing!!!
~CSE
My turn to the "dark" side (and yes, that is tongue-in-cheek) came with problems I had with my daughter. By the time she had reached middle school she was angry and depressed and quite difficult to deal with. I searched everywhere for answers: teachers and school counselors, social workers and psychologists. I finally took her to a psychiatrist who diagnosed her with ADHD. While I could see she did have some symptoms, I also knew there was something more going on. I had worked as a residence counselor with emotionally disturbed children for several years as well as many more years working as a preschool teacher. I know ADHD. You can reason with those children, even when they're angry. You could not reason with my daughter when she was angry. If you continued to talk about what upset her she would continue to get more and more angry and would not stop. The only way I could get her out of the anger was to distract her with a totally random subject.
At this point, I need to step in and say that my "knowing" it was not just ADHD was largely my intuition talking to me. I just didn't recognize that's what is was at the time. I never analyzed my intuition when I was using it back then.
Finally in desperation, I asked God what was wrong with her. I heard the word "bipolar" in my head. My first thought was, "I have a bachelor's degree in psychology! This is not what I was taught bipolar is!" However, when I went home that night and began to research bipolar disorder on my computer, I found out that it manifests much differently in children than it does in adults. The anger was a very common manifestation in children, as well as the fact that the mania and depression can cycle through in children three or four times a day as opposed to weeks or months of one or the other in adults.
I began to research what could be done for bipolar disorder, and the answers I found were not good. All the science-based accepted views were that bipolar disorder could not be cured and people needed to spend the rest of their lives on medication! Still, again my intuition popped back up, telling me this was not true!!! I began to do more research into alternative treatments and included prayer in the mix to help guide me to more answers. This lead me to a new friend at work with an autistic/ADHD daughter and the book "Enzymes: Go With Your Gut" by Karen DeFelise. Even though my daughter is not autistic, she does have some symptoms in common with autistic people that made me understand digestion plays a key role in mental health!!! She had digestive problems from the time she was a very small child.
It was at this point that I stopped and looked back at my life. If so much information was being left out of mainstream science in this area, what else was missing? I began to question everything! As I asked more and more questions (and came up with even more questions), I started to understand the world was not as it appeared at first glance. There was missing information everywhere!!! My new life had begun.
It's been a good many years since that first struggle with my daughter's health, yet I wouldn't change it if I could. I have learned so much and met some really wonderful and fascinating people along the way. Even though I still see many problems in the world, I am much more aware of them and can actively work on ways to fix them.
That's why I feel so strongly about helping people tap into their own intuitions. I honestly believe that by helping people connect to their hearts and the wisdom of the One, I can help change the planet for the good of all, one person at at time.
Yes, I am a conspiracy theorist, and yes, my intuition helped me get there. I feel I am much more complete and aware. I wouldn't change a thing!!!
~CSE
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