When I was a young child, I had a very powerful voice. I'm not talking about being loud or a great singer (although honestly I did have a great singing voice). I'm talking about allowing my voice to be heard--allowing my wishes and desires to be known. As a result, many of the things I wished for became reality.
It all began to change in adolescence. At that point in time, I was sent messages that there were some people that didn't want to play follower to my leader. While I do think it was good for me to think about other people and take their desires into account, I wish someone had been there to tell me my ideas were still good--that a good leader listens and gives as well. As it was, the message I received made me think twice about what I was foisting on other people. I gradually stopped being a leader. My voice was suppressed by my own choice, but suppressed all the same.
My first marriage finally broke me. I was so concerned about giving to others I no longer gave to myself. Everything I did was for my husband and then my children. My desires were no longer important. I was no longer myself and it showed. When my husband finally left I was a shadow of my former self.
It took me over ten years of searching for my voice before I was ready to invite someone new into my life. At that point, I knew I deserved more than I had asked for. My new husband was good at allowing me to express myself, although even then I still had a long way to go.
It was my relationship with a friend that helped me gain the confidence I needed to once again raise my voice. She invited me to help her with an online radio show she did. At first I helped her secure guests for her show, but then she asked me to be on air to comment on the issues she was trying to make people aware of. She saw value in my views on the world. That helped me begin to value my own thoughts and ideas more. My voice began to grow stronger once again.
I started thinking about ways I could share my voice, and my confidence grew as I found new ways to express it. Today, this blog is one of the main ways I share my BEing. I even have my own monthly radio show to help people connect to their hearts and talk about things they can do to become aware of those intuitive signals they get every day.
You too have a voice. You may not feel that anyone cares, but know that you are a beautiful piece in the Universe. If you were not in it, the world would be a little less complete, a little less wonderful. It is in our BEing we best express our voice. Know the world needs what you have to offer. You are perfectly and wonderfully made. Share your voice. Share your song.
~CSE
It all began to change in adolescence. At that point in time, I was sent messages that there were some people that didn't want to play follower to my leader. While I do think it was good for me to think about other people and take their desires into account, I wish someone had been there to tell me my ideas were still good--that a good leader listens and gives as well. As it was, the message I received made me think twice about what I was foisting on other people. I gradually stopped being a leader. My voice was suppressed by my own choice, but suppressed all the same.
My first marriage finally broke me. I was so concerned about giving to others I no longer gave to myself. Everything I did was for my husband and then my children. My desires were no longer important. I was no longer myself and it showed. When my husband finally left I was a shadow of my former self.
It took me over ten years of searching for my voice before I was ready to invite someone new into my life. At that point, I knew I deserved more than I had asked for. My new husband was good at allowing me to express myself, although even then I still had a long way to go.
It was my relationship with a friend that helped me gain the confidence I needed to once again raise my voice. She invited me to help her with an online radio show she did. At first I helped her secure guests for her show, but then she asked me to be on air to comment on the issues she was trying to make people aware of. She saw value in my views on the world. That helped me begin to value my own thoughts and ideas more. My voice began to grow stronger once again.
I started thinking about ways I could share my voice, and my confidence grew as I found new ways to express it. Today, this blog is one of the main ways I share my BEing. I even have my own monthly radio show to help people connect to their hearts and talk about things they can do to become aware of those intuitive signals they get every day.
You too have a voice. You may not feel that anyone cares, but know that you are a beautiful piece in the Universe. If you were not in it, the world would be a little less complete, a little less wonderful. It is in our BEing we best express our voice. Know the world needs what you have to offer. You are perfectly and wonderfully made. Share your voice. Share your song.
~CSE
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