I've spent a great deal of time lately analyzing why I want to get back to certain aspects of my Christian roots. The truth is, I had some extremely powerful experiences that made me feel connected--made me feel as though I was part of something more than just me, and I like that feeling. It is something I do not want to lose. What stops me from turning myself over to this feeling is the thought that I may no longer be in control of "me" anymore.
My problem has always been that I think too much. I spend way too much time with my thought processes--too much time in my head. I allow myself to dwell in the space where my separate self lives, when what my heart longs for is to be connected once again.
My head cries out, "Don't do it! It's a trap!!!"
My heart says, "Come back to me and live from this place of Oneness."
My Christian roots allowed me to live from this place of the heart even though I believed God was better than me--a lowly sinner. I was connected. I felt guided by purpose. I felt protected. I felt loved. When I was connected to the One, I could draw on all the resources contained therein.
I also believed I was a poor sinner who needed saving.
As I look back on these feelings and beliefs, one thing becomes crystal clear. The powerful connection I felt was not one where I saw myself as nothing. I was One with all. Because I was connected, I could literally do anything. Be anything.
I don't have to analyze the thought processes in order to live from that place. I just have to allow myself to let my mind go and live from my heart--live from the place where God exists in Oneness.
Letting go and letting God is allowing yourself to fully let go of your separateness. By doing so, you once again come back into the presence of perfect power, perfect joy, perfect peace, perfect love. You know the mind of the One because you are the mind of the One, and that is more than enough.
~CSE
My problem has always been that I think too much. I spend way too much time with my thought processes--too much time in my head. I allow myself to dwell in the space where my separate self lives, when what my heart longs for is to be connected once again.
My head cries out, "Don't do it! It's a trap!!!"
My heart says, "Come back to me and live from this place of Oneness."
My Christian roots allowed me to live from this place of the heart even though I believed God was better than me--a lowly sinner. I was connected. I felt guided by purpose. I felt protected. I felt loved. When I was connected to the One, I could draw on all the resources contained therein.
I also believed I was a poor sinner who needed saving.
As I look back on these feelings and beliefs, one thing becomes crystal clear. The powerful connection I felt was not one where I saw myself as nothing. I was One with all. Because I was connected, I could literally do anything. Be anything.
I don't have to analyze the thought processes in order to live from that place. I just have to allow myself to let my mind go and live from my heart--live from the place where God exists in Oneness.
Letting go and letting God is allowing yourself to fully let go of your separateness. By doing so, you once again come back into the presence of perfect power, perfect joy, perfect peace, perfect love. You know the mind of the One because you are the mind of the One, and that is more than enough.
~CSE
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