This morning I had a very interesting meditation time. My mind was occupied scrolling randomly through Facebook on my phone. I had a Selah (Christian group) music CD playing in the background. I felt myself being drawn into Oneness. It's ironic to me that Christianity--with all it's many proclamations of self-worthlessness--can be an instrument of self worth and identification. It is the self-worth part of the process that actually brings us back into Oneness because we understand exactly who we are.
In many ways, my journey down the rabbit hole has been difficult for me. I thought I knew who I was. As I began asking new questions (and received new data and perspectives), the foundation I had built my life on began to crumble away. Certain aspects of Christianity were laid bare and I had to figure out who I was in light of this new information.
Although I don't have it all figured out, I do know one thing: my heart is still crying out for connection. In recent years I have drawn myself back from connecting in the ways I used to connect because I have been afraid of being taken advantage of by the false premises of my old faith. I no longer want to be a slave to untruths and misguided information. I do not want my personal power usurped by those unfit to use it. I have become cautious as I navigate these new waters.
Still, my heart has cried out for that closeness. In the past, I have been able to use the frequencies in certain music to help me get to that place of Oneness. Christian music was pretty much exclusively used, so naturally I am drawn to it.
A couple of weeks ago, I felt the desire to return to that same music. While my mind is still cautioning me to be careful of the thought processes involved, my heart is telling me to just let go and allow it to take me to that place of connection.
I do have a tendency to overanalyze everything. Sometimes, you just have to let go of all the arguments your mind creates and allow yourself to follow your heart. You may not know why. You may not have all the answers. And that's okay!!! Your mind doesn't necessarily need to know!
What does your heart long for? Do that!!! It may just change your life!!!
~CSE
In many ways, my journey down the rabbit hole has been difficult for me. I thought I knew who I was. As I began asking new questions (and received new data and perspectives), the foundation I had built my life on began to crumble away. Certain aspects of Christianity were laid bare and I had to figure out who I was in light of this new information.
Although I don't have it all figured out, I do know one thing: my heart is still crying out for connection. In recent years I have drawn myself back from connecting in the ways I used to connect because I have been afraid of being taken advantage of by the false premises of my old faith. I no longer want to be a slave to untruths and misguided information. I do not want my personal power usurped by those unfit to use it. I have become cautious as I navigate these new waters.
Still, my heart has cried out for that closeness. In the past, I have been able to use the frequencies in certain music to help me get to that place of Oneness. Christian music was pretty much exclusively used, so naturally I am drawn to it.
A couple of weeks ago, I felt the desire to return to that same music. While my mind is still cautioning me to be careful of the thought processes involved, my heart is telling me to just let go and allow it to take me to that place of connection.
I do have a tendency to overanalyze everything. Sometimes, you just have to let go of all the arguments your mind creates and allow yourself to follow your heart. You may not know why. You may not have all the answers. And that's okay!!! Your mind doesn't necessarily need to know!
What does your heart long for? Do that!!! It may just change your life!!!
~CSE
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