Resolutions

It is officially 2017, and most of us are busy planning how our lives will be better. This is where resolutions come in--those pesky little promises we make to ourselves to try to become better than we were the year before. For many of us, those resolutions fall by the wayside within the first few months as old habits and patterns are remembered.

This year, I have one resolution: I am going to begin asking for what I want. That might sound like an easy thing to do, but I have spent most of my life doing things for everyone except me. It has dawned on me that my life is not where I want it to be because I have not opened myself up to the possibilities.

Part of my problem is low self esteem. Regardless of my outgoing nature, the simple fact of the matter is deep down I have never felt worthy to receive. Some of this stems from negative messages I received about myself when I was a child. The other part of this was my religious programming where I was taught my life was all about God and others--never about me. Thinking about myself was "selfish". I never came first. Consequently, I have lived a life where I am not part of the equation, other than to be used for the benefit of others.

Now that my children are grown and out of the nest, I have had some time to analyze and understand why I am where I am. I have time to think about what I want and what is important to me. I have time to meditate and call upon the wisdom of God/Source/Oneness to guide me into new paths.

I have no idea where this year will lead me. I just know that I am allowing myself to be open to new possibilities as I reach out and ask the Universe what more is possible. I am excited to see where this will lead me.

~CSE

  

Don't Settle!!!

I was very happy as a young child. I smiled a lot. I made friends easily. I was usually the one who came up with the game plan for what the group did. Life was good as I followed my heart and the blessings flowed.

As I got older, doubt crept in. People I loved and looked up to "put me in my place". It was not up to me to be in charge. My ideas were not the only ones that were good. While such ideas were true, they also made me feel bad about the choices I made. I stopped following my heart, no longer believing in myself. There were times I was still happy, but only occasionally.

The lowest point in my life was when I divorced. At that time, my life was not my own and had not been my own for a long time. I was a dedicated wife and mother who did everything for everyone else except me. By the time my husband left I felt totally empty and used up, a shell of my former self. It took me over ten years to build myself back up to the point I felt I was once again worthy to receive.  

Most of our problems in life stem from not loving ourselves enough to accept the love and other blessings we truly deserve! We are often broken and abused, and somehow we are convinced it is because something inside us is unworthy. This is a lie!!!

We are all beautiful, powerful and infinite beings!!! At no time are we unworthy to receive the abundance and blessings the Universe wants to bestow on us. What stops us is we ourselves!!! We are our own worst enemies.

Don't settle for second best!!! Allow yourself to follow your dreams and your heart!!! Be open to the blessings the Universe has in store for you!!! Be bold enough to ask for them!!! You are worth it!!!

~CSE