It has taken me almost fifty years to figure out what I wanted to be when I grew up. Yes, I went through all the motions. Went to college. Got married. Got a job in my career field. Had kids. Became a stay-at-home-mom. Got divorced. Went into round two of getting a job (more or less to pay the bills so I could afford to raise my kids my way). It wasn't until my kids were almost raised that I really began to focus on what I wanted to do for me--what would truly make me happy. Fortunately, I have been assisted by my partner in crime, hubby #2, who has allowed me to pursue my dreams (even when they aren't making money).
I have wanted to be a writer since I was twelve years old. When I was in high school, I began volunteering my time working with children who had been neglected and abused. I found I enjoyed showing them love and kindness because of the healing effects it had on both them and myself. My experiences at church camp taught me to appreciate my connection to the Divine, thus sealing my desire to help people attain their own personal connection. Until recently, all these passions seemed too dissimilar to find them all in one convenient "job". Then I began working with a life coach, and things began to fall into place as I focused in on how I wanted to use my gifts to pull those desires together.
In the past, fear has often stopped me from working towards my goals. The fear of potential fame is a big one. I look at the lives of those who are already famous and feel sorry for those people who are hounded by the press and fans. Even the thought of allowing that possibility into my life makes me anxious.
Another fear that has stopped me from playing big is my fear of becoming arrogant. I do not like to be around arrogant people. I believe they are weak as they attempt to inflate their own importance by diminishing the importance of others. I have seen people acquire arrogance as they grew in fame or became supposed "experts" in their chosen fields. It can be difficult to not think yourself more worthy than others when you constantly hear about how "wonderful" you are. It is a weak state to be in and one that makes you vulnerable to attack.
Willingness to step out in faith and play big requires you to take risks. I have spent a great deal of time making myself small and unseen because of experiences I remember from past lives where I allowed myself to play big.
At any rate, I made the decision and set the intention to use my gifts to try to heal and free the people of this earth. I started this blog, using my name, to (hopefully) ask the questions that will help others think about new ways of doing things in order to promote positive change. While I still have a long way to my ultimate readership goals, things have actually progressed much more quickly than I would have thought.
The thing that has helped me the most is actually meditating and praying each and every day. I make time to get into my heart and intentionally connect to all that IS. I ask what I can do to help others as I use the gifts I have been given to the best of my abilities. This is how I am following my heart.
Overcoming fear is focusing on love and living through that. The fear will still come back from time to time, but the more you focus on that love relationship you have with the Divine, the more likely your fears will stay in the background, allowing you to play big and create a much better world.
~CSE
I have wanted to be a writer since I was twelve years old. When I was in high school, I began volunteering my time working with children who had been neglected and abused. I found I enjoyed showing them love and kindness because of the healing effects it had on both them and myself. My experiences at church camp taught me to appreciate my connection to the Divine, thus sealing my desire to help people attain their own personal connection. Until recently, all these passions seemed too dissimilar to find them all in one convenient "job". Then I began working with a life coach, and things began to fall into place as I focused in on how I wanted to use my gifts to pull those desires together.
In the past, fear has often stopped me from working towards my goals. The fear of potential fame is a big one. I look at the lives of those who are already famous and feel sorry for those people who are hounded by the press and fans. Even the thought of allowing that possibility into my life makes me anxious.
Another fear that has stopped me from playing big is my fear of becoming arrogant. I do not like to be around arrogant people. I believe they are weak as they attempt to inflate their own importance by diminishing the importance of others. I have seen people acquire arrogance as they grew in fame or became supposed "experts" in their chosen fields. It can be difficult to not think yourself more worthy than others when you constantly hear about how "wonderful" you are. It is a weak state to be in and one that makes you vulnerable to attack.
Willingness to step out in faith and play big requires you to take risks. I have spent a great deal of time making myself small and unseen because of experiences I remember from past lives where I allowed myself to play big.
At any rate, I made the decision and set the intention to use my gifts to try to heal and free the people of this earth. I started this blog, using my name, to (hopefully) ask the questions that will help others think about new ways of doing things in order to promote positive change. While I still have a long way to my ultimate readership goals, things have actually progressed much more quickly than I would have thought.
The thing that has helped me the most is actually meditating and praying each and every day. I make time to get into my heart and intentionally connect to all that IS. I ask what I can do to help others as I use the gifts I have been given to the best of my abilities. This is how I am following my heart.
Overcoming fear is focusing on love and living through that. The fear will still come back from time to time, but the more you focus on that love relationship you have with the Divine, the more likely your fears will stay in the background, allowing you to play big and create a much better world.
~CSE
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